I faked a lung disease to get out of PE. So what? What are you, some kind of street shrink?

In my blog browsing, I recently came across a terrible one. It was a movie critique (lovely), but I disagreed with every thought.

Milk

he: 6/10

me: 9/10

(500) Days of Summer

he: 4/10

me: 7/10

He also rated like, The Last Holiday really high.. huh? and I don't remember what else, but it was disturbing. I'd really like to document all of my movie watching, because I certainly do a lot of it. I'm considering converting this entire blog. Or maybe making a new one. I don't really have time now though.. a few weeks from finals and all..

I will say that I would give Love & Other Drugs a 6/10. I actually really liked it. I mean it was much about sex and anti relationships, but then all of a sudden it was like "I love you" and then even (brace yourself)--happily ever-after. Why does every movie feel the need to do that? I mean, we don't buy it. How can we? Do we see that in real life? Not hardly.

Anyhow.. Maybe someday soon I will try to make a section of this blog into a movie critique section. Or maybe a multi-media section. Because I am also rather opinionated about music also. And books. Ok, enough sidetracking.

Lab report. Coffee. Pee for the 1034 time tonight.

Repeat.

a family of trees wanted to be haunted

Anyone sick of my drama-queen, fickle obsessions? Whatev.

I am Ob. Sessed. With Landon Pigg. I'm watching this moving Whip It, and am like wow. This boy is lovely, who is he? Landon Pigg. That sounds familiar? Yea. Falling in Love at a Coffee Shop. A beautiful, beautiful song.

And this movie is.. good. Not fantastic, but pretty good. It has a ridiculously amazing soundtrack.

Tilly and the Wall - "Pot Kettle Black"
Ramones - "Sheena Is a Punk Rocker"
Cut Chemist feat. Hymnal - "What's the Altitude"
The Breeders - "Bang On"
The Raveonettes - "Dead Sound"
Clap Your Hands Say Yeah - "Blue Turning Grey"
Jens Lekman - "Your Arms Around Me"
Gotye - "Learnalilgivinanlovin"
Peaches - "Boys Wanna Be Her"
Dolly Parton - "Jolene"
38 Special - "Caught Up in You"
Har Mar Superstar feat. Adam Green - "Never My Love"
Goose - "Black Gloves"
The Ettes - "Crown of Age"
Landon Pigg feat. Turbo Fruits - "High Times"
Little Joy - "Unattainable"
The Chordettes - "Lollipop (Squeak E. Clean & Desert Eagles remix)"
The Go! Team - "The Power is On"
Apollo Sunshine - "Breeze"
Turbo Fruits - "Fun Dream Love Dream" (on Amazon MP3 version)
Young MC - "Know How" (on iTunes version)
The Section Quartet - "The Road to Austin" (on iTunes version)

Yes I did feel the need to put the whole soundtrack on there. And I got it from wikipedia and I'm thinking it's not accurate because MGMT's Kids was just on the movie (yes, I'm still watching) and it isn't listed and it would be because it's amazing. Anyways, Landon Pigg. Doesn't he look/his name sound like he should be British? He's from Tennessee. Gross.

Ok, I'll move on. ;)

a time of innocence

I sense that every brilliant movie plays the Simon & Garfunkel song, Bookends. I sensed this, then looked up, and found that the song is played in just two movies: Girl, Interrupted and 500 Days of Summer. They of course are both amazing, but I was real surprised. My new assertion is that all brilliant movies Should play Bookends.

So I miss Winona Ryder and so I imdb-ed her and magically stumbled upon Black Swan. This movie looks so vey wonderful, I cannot wait. Excitement risen because its a "thriller," so I can trick normal people into coming with.

wake up naked drinking coffee making plans to change the world

I've identified a handicap that I very much need to overcome--sleep. I have just found that it is holding me back in every way. I need more hours in a day, serious. I seem to behind in absolutely every class, all the time. If I could only adapt myself to get over having to sleep, I would gain so much time! I'd even gain ground on free time--which I currently have none of. I mean, I probably wouldn't gain much in this category (pretty sure if I could utilize all 24 hours in every day I might still be behind..), but it would be something. I wouldn't feel guilty going out Once in awhile.

So I'm working on this adaptation. Last week I probably averaged about 4 hours per night (taking into account I stayed up All night two nights..) But then I just crashed on Friday night and slept for 11 straight hours.. yikes. But I think I've done about 5 hours Saturday, 6 Sunday, 4 Monday, and 2 Tuesday. I think I'm crashing right about now though. I've had 40oz of coffee today and I still feel miserable. I'm debating getting more now..I am so ridiculously unhealthy these past few weeks. WHEN I justify taking time to run, I can barely go a few miles before a break. WHEN I decide to feed myself, it's usually oatmeal (because I always keep it on hand for oatmeal-related emergencies) or whatever I can buy around town. Because I don't have time to grocery shop. Although my enormous container of oatmeal is starting to run low.. what will I do?? Likely starve.

Should I go get more coffee now? I probably have already speant too much money today (both coffees were boughten..) I should have some sort of rule that limits me buying more than 2 cups per day? It is so cheap to make it at home and so expensive to buy.. so why??? Laziness.

Coffee becomes one of my biggest obstacles in not sleeping, but not because of the price. My teeth! They are very clearly getting stained and something else a little disturbing? They ache. Like all day long, it feels like they are wearing away. Which they probably are. Maybe I could just carry a toothbrush and toothbrush around with me, but I just don't think its a good solution--brushing my teeth gives me somewhat of the same wearing away sensation. I think I need like special toothpaste.

I anyways have a pre-med club thing to go to now and then a lab report to write. So I better go get more coffee.

Say a prayer for my poor teeth..

on me dit que le temps qui glisse est un salaud

I have a slight obsession with Europe. Take that back, every country besides America. Why do I live here again?

As a little one I loved the show Skins. It's about a group of teenagers in South West England. I wiki-ed it, and I think it does it justice, so I'll just zoom it right in:

"The controversial plot line explores issues such as dysfunctional families, mental illness (including eating disorders), sexual orientation identity, substance abuse and death"

(don't try clicking on the links, unless you'd enjoy some wiki musings about the topics (I don't recommend it..justice is less deserved )

I anyways liked it probably because, as wiki so described, is fucked up, but more so because they're British and.. I'm obsessed. This is all very random, of course. It sparked through a stumble upon of Hannah Murray.. A. dorable.

Can I wear a puppy-printed poodle skirt and coral stockings? Unlikely. I feel as though I'm not a happy enough person.

And this? Yea, there are lizards on her necklace. Serious. She's perfect.


Another current European obsession? Carla Bruni.I mean, yea, she's a model, so of course she's lovely.. probably more obvious than ms. Murray. But I anyways love her mostly for her music. She's Italian, but she is the French first lady and sings french music. Love her.

all day long I can hear people talking out loud

Watching Notting Hill on a lazy Sunday afternoon.

New interest: Marc Chagall. My quick research loves his "zest for life." Zest for life? Intrigue.

In the movie, Anna Scott (Julia Roberts, of course.) describes the painting as "It feels like how being in love should be. Floating through a dark blue sky." Not having been in love myself, I don't really understand this. To me floating through a dark blue sky is more lonely than promotion of togetherness (which is what falling in love is, isn't it?) Maybe I'm wrong about the whole process. What does falling in love feel like? Is it lonely? Or maybe the dark blue sky is just the unknown. Like falling in love is wading through uncharted waters where those two particular people had not been together before. But then, if you fall in love more than once in your life, do you explore a different dark sky, or just a new area of the same sky? Or is it the same dark sky, but since you are experiencing it with a different person it all looks different. But it is always the same, isn't it.

I prefer the prior explanation: the dark blue sky is loneliness.

poke at my iris

Here's the thing, I haven't cried in probably 3 months. This concerns me. Logically, it really shouldn't be a bad thing. But really? Do I ever have logical thoughts? The fact that I haven't had a reason to cry should be a good thing. But I dislike it.

Perhaps it aligns with my love of depressing movies (i.e. Revolutionary Road, Closer, ..), and my love of depressing music (9 crimes, Damien Rice, Song for You, Alexi Murdoch, Breathe Me, Sia .. ). Sometimes when I'm too happy (like for the past few months, for example) it just makes me antsy. That must be pretty abnormal, right? Desiring to be sad cannot be a healthy thing.. It's just so me though. I am very drawn to sad things. Favorite weather? Rain. Favorite stories? memoirs about people's fucked up lives. What is it about sadness that intrigues me so?

I anyways felt the need to cry yesterday, but held it in. My eyes filled up with tears, I think, because the whiteboard got blurry. I had just gotten my Ochem test back. I haven't really shook the feeling yet. So I've gotten my sad back. But still, I wish I would just cry about it or something.
Poke at my iris, why can't I cry about this?
and now we're unrelated and rid of all the shit we hated
but I hate when I feel like this and I never hated you